Let me see if I can figure this out

I am wearing a big goofy grin when I sit at the table with all of them and I laugh when I think about this past week. and it seems like the holiday season has hit its peak I can't help but laugh at every smiling face I see because in each smile is a happy memory I remind myself that being so happy is not a sin and when I think about how long its been I can't help but get all teary eyed for when I saw them, my heart but sighed and my eyes swelled with joyful tears, because I can't believe it's been five busy years since hugging them,since seeing those faces, since smelling those smells, and being those places I'm sitting here just spending time with all of you just talking and relaxing the way we used to do I can't believe I'm feeling so happy here, so at peace as we joke around the doubts I had diminish, and then cease It truly felt like we came home, perhaps we were never gone you would have thought we'd never left the way we get alon...

is forever enough, is forever enough? So I wish I weren't so self absorbed so I could actually write about something interesting, worth while and not entirely have to do with me. But sadly, lately that is all I have been thinking about. This is why sometimes I don't see the point in writing and updating. I feel like everything I have to say is pointless and uninteresting. I feel like anything important is smothered by my trivial problems. Also, I never have the balls to write about anything personal on here. So sometimes I feel like the best I can do is post a silly rant or a lame sappy poem that's not even good. Hmm well I guess I could update with some news. First of all four of my nine references have gotten their stuff to MTW. So I guess its moving along. I turned in my full application a few weeks ago. So now it is just a matter of waiting, praying, and more waiting. My phone interview is going to be about 6 weeks and then if that goes well I should be having my in-per...

So I didn't even know about this November Journaling Month until I read Valerie's post. I don't really have time to do it everyday I think, but I've decided I will try and write a little more this month. Even if they are short and pointless entries. I looked up some prompts online and wanted to find something interesting to write about. and then I realized I'd rather just do something for my amusement. This one will be short because I have a paper to finish before this weekend. What do you feel when you stare at the stars? I feel like I'm connected to someone far away somehow. Because even though we are far apart, we see the same stars and we both are connected at heart. I feel peace and awe and wonder. I feel inspired to pray and the affirmation in my bones that there is something greater than I could possibly imagine out there, in charge of all the universe. I feel alone and yet surrounded by so many things at the same time. Its this weird feeling of knowing ...