Amanda and I leave for Acapulco tomorrow. I cant believe an entire school yeah of waiting in anxious anticipation has brought me to this point. Six and a half hours before departure. Don't know what to think or what to expect. I want to tell myself to get over it but my heart cant sit still after this point. I've missed these kids like crazy. as cliche as that sounds....but its true. I doubt they've thought about seeing me as much I have thought about seeing them. But that's ok. I don't care. I just can't wait to see them. I might jump of that bus and cry in their arms. I am so grateful God is giving me another summer with them. Don't know what I did to deserve this. Probably nothing. How good is the Lord. Right now I am sitting in Amanda's living room. kind of watching the celtics game with her and her family. I should go soon. Just wanted to say we leave tomorrow. Her family has been nothing short of wonderful and welcoming to me. I am very blessed to have been able to be a guest in there home for the past few days. I suppose I ought to go and finish watching the game with them! just wanted to say farewell for now and I'll talk to you all when i return from Mexico.

things to meditate on:

God is love
my idenity in him
In Christ alone what that means.
loving myself because I am who God made me to be.

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