trying to be better about updating
ok so it hasn't been a whole month since my last post...so I suppose I am getting better at this. Its only been a couple of days but so much has happened...so much always happens in such a short time I am trying to be better about sharing it before i forget.
Sooo yesterday was thursday. Rebay and I went to Sobre el Puente. Lots of kids were there. it was wonderful spending time with them. we ate, sang, talked, had bible lesson and played games. sometimes its hard to talk..well actually all the time. I struggle alot with my spanish. I sometimes wonder if I am getting worse rather than better. My brain feels mushed. But I suppose i am understanding more and more everyday. I just dont know it. Alot has been on my heart these past couple of days. But I am getting a head of myself. I dont know what to share first. And I am probably not going to share everything right now cause it is late and I need to go to bed soon. Tomorrow I dont know what we are going to do but I know I am getting up early to go running with some of the kids and interns.
Ok so first, yesterday after lunch, B and I went with J, V, and C to just hang out. we were going to go to the cine but it turned out there were no movies playing at the times we could see them. pues we decided to walk. so we walked for alittle along the costera. it was wonderful to walk with them. we got to talk more and they shared with me more about how they used to live and the places they would go and things they would do. J wanted to take us to this place he knew which was kind of farther away. We had so specific time we need to be back at Casa Hogar so we said yes. we took a bus to this beautiful beach. the night was cloudy and storm clouds hovering in the distance. we could see them like a gray fluffly blanket covering the horizon. and the rain was coming down over the ocean and over the hotels on the other side of the shore. the waves were huge and strong. I couldn't stand up in the water for five seconds before getting knocked over and then sucked under. it was so much fun! everyone went in except for C, which was disappointing but he said he still had fun watching me fall all the time. afterward we all took at taxi back to the z and had tacos for dinner. this was meal and travel time including more talking and laughing and time for getting to know one another.
Today I also went to sobre el puente. today we A and I came back early to practice for the dance. Tonight the interns preformed a dance for all the kids and had a fiesta (with cake!) in honor of all the graduates. I was so nervous and embarrassed to dance in front of the kids but it turned out that they loved it and had a great time. In fact, I think they were cheering for an encore. Ok just really fast for everyone who is reading this, I apologize for the horrible grammar and spelling errors. Im really terrible with that sort of thing and I will try my best to make this readable for all of you but I usally write when I have time and its never much...I dont really go back and fix everything because I dont have time. So sorry about that. I hope this is legible. Anyway, so yes the fiesta fue divertido. Oh and also I apologize for the spanglish I might through in there sometimes/aveces.
Hm what else. pues, I am contemplating going to camp for a week with the kids from sobre el puente. I dont know how that is going to go or if I will end up doing it but I think I want to. I only have four weeks left here. I'm already getting emotional just thinking about leaving.
the hardest part is this time I really dont know when I will be able to return. Its something I really need to pray about.
recently Ive been thinking alot about trusting in God, and how he is good. And no matter how much I screw up and what I do or dont do, he still loves me and by his grace i still am saved. I see how much trouble I have trusting him. I see it the way I am or was. and I see how he gives me strength and bravery to just not care and live for him no matter what people think. I also see how weak and how little faith I have even when he is staring me right in the face, showing me all I need to believe all I need to trust, and still I fall or run away or don't listen. surely it is by his grace I learn these things, and in the arms of his mercy I find rest.
Give me courage, give me peace
when I am alone, you will find me
and even when I felt alone
you never left, but carried me home
because when I fell, I felt your hand
you filled my cup, in a barren land
my lips were parched I could not speak
with trembling limbs, and faith so weak
I tried to walk and there I fell,
coming so close to painful hell
when in arms of mercy I was caught
and by his blood my life was bought.
but not for one self seeking thing
with the purest love that one could bring
So grant me patience when I am dry
and give me courage for one more try
your grace and love are all I need
and by your spirit I am set free
so grant me wisdom that I may keep
and grant me joy so that I may always seek.
and in those times I lose my way
by my side you will always stay
and I when I call you, lead me home
and help me trust in Christ alone.
Sooo yesterday was thursday. Rebay and I went to Sobre el Puente. Lots of kids were there. it was wonderful spending time with them. we ate, sang, talked, had bible lesson and played games. sometimes its hard to talk..well actually all the time. I struggle alot with my spanish. I sometimes wonder if I am getting worse rather than better. My brain feels mushed. But I suppose i am understanding more and more everyday. I just dont know it. Alot has been on my heart these past couple of days. But I am getting a head of myself. I dont know what to share first. And I am probably not going to share everything right now cause it is late and I need to go to bed soon. Tomorrow I dont know what we are going to do but I know I am getting up early to go running with some of the kids and interns.
Ok so first, yesterday after lunch, B and I went with J, V, and C to just hang out. we were going to go to the cine but it turned out there were no movies playing at the times we could see them. pues we decided to walk. so we walked for alittle along the costera. it was wonderful to walk with them. we got to talk more and they shared with me more about how they used to live and the places they would go and things they would do. J wanted to take us to this place he knew which was kind of farther away. We had so specific time we need to be back at Casa Hogar so we said yes. we took a bus to this beautiful beach. the night was cloudy and storm clouds hovering in the distance. we could see them like a gray fluffly blanket covering the horizon. and the rain was coming down over the ocean and over the hotels on the other side of the shore. the waves were huge and strong. I couldn't stand up in the water for five seconds before getting knocked over and then sucked under. it was so much fun! everyone went in except for C, which was disappointing but he said he still had fun watching me fall all the time. afterward we all took at taxi back to the z and had tacos for dinner. this was meal and travel time including more talking and laughing and time for getting to know one another.
Today I also went to sobre el puente. today we A and I came back early to practice for the dance. Tonight the interns preformed a dance for all the kids and had a fiesta (with cake!) in honor of all the graduates. I was so nervous and embarrassed to dance in front of the kids but it turned out that they loved it and had a great time. In fact, I think they were cheering for an encore. Ok just really fast for everyone who is reading this, I apologize for the horrible grammar and spelling errors. Im really terrible with that sort of thing and I will try my best to make this readable for all of you but I usally write when I have time and its never much...I dont really go back and fix everything because I dont have time. So sorry about that. I hope this is legible. Anyway, so yes the fiesta fue divertido. Oh and also I apologize for the spanglish I might through in there sometimes/aveces.
Hm what else. pues, I am contemplating going to camp for a week with the kids from sobre el puente. I dont know how that is going to go or if I will end up doing it but I think I want to. I only have four weeks left here. I'm already getting emotional just thinking about leaving.
the hardest part is this time I really dont know when I will be able to return. Its something I really need to pray about.
recently Ive been thinking alot about trusting in God, and how he is good. And no matter how much I screw up and what I do or dont do, he still loves me and by his grace i still am saved. I see how much trouble I have trusting him. I see it the way I am or was. and I see how he gives me strength and bravery to just not care and live for him no matter what people think. I also see how weak and how little faith I have even when he is staring me right in the face, showing me all I need to believe all I need to trust, and still I fall or run away or don't listen. surely it is by his grace I learn these things, and in the arms of his mercy I find rest.
Give me courage, give me peace
when I am alone, you will find me
and even when I felt alone
you never left, but carried me home
because when I fell, I felt your hand
you filled my cup, in a barren land
my lips were parched I could not speak
with trembling limbs, and faith so weak
I tried to walk and there I fell,
coming so close to painful hell
when in arms of mercy I was caught
and by his blood my life was bought.
but not for one self seeking thing
with the purest love that one could bring
So grant me patience when I am dry
and give me courage for one more try
your grace and love are all I need
and by your spirit I am set free
so grant me wisdom that I may keep
and grant me joy so that I may always seek.
and in those times I lose my way
by my side you will always stay
and I when I call you, lead me home
and help me trust in Christ alone.
Believe it or not, the "smushed brain" feeling is a sign that you're improving.
ReplyDeleteThe complete and total immersion of that whole life is doing such a world of good for you- for your Spanish, your faith, your social work, for everything.
You already know that I know how you feel about the trusting thing. I'll write you a facebook message soon. I'm so proud of you, Samone. You're braver and stronger than you think. I can't wait to see you!