I am sitting here wanting memories to teach me
I'm sitting here wanting memories to teach me,
to see the beauty of the world through my own eyes
I thought that you were gone, but now I know you're here with me.
You are the voice that whispers all I need to hear.
I was sitting here. Thinking of all these things that I am blessed with. All things, and changes that I see God making in my life and in the lives of people who I love. And I could cry. In fact, I almost do. I just wanted to post and talk about all the ways that God has blessed me. But I can't talk so much about other people's personal lives on a live blog. Hah I just have seen all these things.
I feel like when I post on here sometimes, my posts are all about God and loving him and trusting him. I hope no one mistakes me for some kind of saint. Cause the thing is, even when I post this stuff or just because I'm posting this or that is what God puts on my mind at such a particular time, does not mean I am perfect or have it all figured out. And I get worried that is the vibe I am sending out when I post. I don't want people to think that I have everything going for me, that my life is perfect because I follow Christ. I don't even do a good job of it. The truth is, I have hope and that is about it. I have hope that God is going to work everything out according to his purpose and that he loves me. And that is why I post entries like this. It is not because I'm so Holy but I am striving to live for Christ right now, and by the grace of God I am doing at least something right. Or headed in the right direction.
I don't really know where I am going but I just wanted to get that out there first of all. And that is that I don't know everything and I'm not the most God fearing devout person. I'm just me, I'm a sinner saved by Gods grace. yeah I know we hear this all to often but its good to hear again.
Ok so before I go any further, I just want to say I am in Washington DC right now. I am visiting one of my best friends Julianne. We were roommates for half a semester freshmen year at Gordon. It has been so good and a huge blessing to get to see and spend time with her again. I can't believe its been so long because it seems like I never left her. We can talk about anything and I missed her! haha ok so now to get a grip. It just has been wonderful so far. ANd I think once the weekend is over and i get back I will post an entry talking about all our misadventures but for now I just wanted to say that. I am in DC with Julianne. We just had lunch together in front of the Capital Building. Yes I know, how cool is that? It was through talking to her I realized how blessed my life has been. How happy I am and how everything is going good lately. It kind scares me because of course its so easy to trust God when everything is going right as rain. But what about when times get tough? Where will I be in my walk with God then. It scares me to think about because I know how easily I am led astray or how simple it is for me to overwhelmed and worry about something and then forget about all his promises and his love. So I guess I will just have to keep praying for that in the future.
I know this entry kind of has no real point and its kind of scattered but I just have been thinking alot lately about....lots of things and I have lots of things to say and ramble about but not enough time to do it. Right now I am kind of just blogging for no reason. I just feel like talking for no reason.
I have been thinking alot about how so often as Christains we get so caught up in proving ourselves or our faith to other people. We want to convert or "help" them so bad that we come across as pushy or even anxious about our faith. I think its important to remember a very simple concept. Ultimately, God doesn't NEED us to do anything. God can bring people to faith all on his own. Now that isnt to say that we arent called as christians to be a witness for Christ, or to evangelize or talk with people or answer questions. I think we are called to apply and use what knowledge we have for his glory and to give his love to others, which could of course be by spreading the word. And God does use us as tools and instruments for his glory, however we need to remember it is not HIM WHO NEEDS US it is we who need him (desperately). And so we should not really worry about this, becuase if we are doing what God calls us to, or at least seeking or trying to, conforming to his will, then he will use us as tools in this process anyway. ANd you never know how or when God is using you, when he does. You dont always know why God wants you somewhere or do do this or talk to this person, but its comforting to know that whereever you are right now, that is where God has put you, that is where you are and that is where you are supposed to be. I'm not saying its always easy or a feel good place, I am saying no matter where that is, as long as you are following him, you are there and this is where God wants you. And this is part of taking a leap of faith and trusting that he will bring it all to completetion and use you for his purposes, even if you cant see or know them right away. And maybe we will never know all that God is using us for in this life, or whose life God will change through us....but I think its something so important to remember and that is, he can and will use us...but we need to also trust he doesnt NEED us and whether it is through us or by some other means, God will heal and save other people. We just need to align our will to his....I believe this is through prayer and petition. It is so hard to do this. This is just something I have been thinking alot about lately, it is so hard to trust God and so hard to say "Oh well I'll just pray about it and let God take care of the rest." ANd then its hard to draw a line and say...I will stop at this point and God will work it out...but I do think that at some point you do have to do that. Because we can only do so much, and we need to trust God more, and know that his capacities are limitless.
to see the beauty of the world through my own eyes
I thought that you were gone, but now I know you're here with me.
You are the voice that whispers all I need to hear.
I was sitting here. Thinking of all these things that I am blessed with. All things, and changes that I see God making in my life and in the lives of people who I love. And I could cry. In fact, I almost do. I just wanted to post and talk about all the ways that God has blessed me. But I can't talk so much about other people's personal lives on a live blog. Hah I just have seen all these things.
I feel like when I post on here sometimes, my posts are all about God and loving him and trusting him. I hope no one mistakes me for some kind of saint. Cause the thing is, even when I post this stuff or just because I'm posting this or that is what God puts on my mind at such a particular time, does not mean I am perfect or have it all figured out. And I get worried that is the vibe I am sending out when I post. I don't want people to think that I have everything going for me, that my life is perfect because I follow Christ. I don't even do a good job of it. The truth is, I have hope and that is about it. I have hope that God is going to work everything out according to his purpose and that he loves me. And that is why I post entries like this. It is not because I'm so Holy but I am striving to live for Christ right now, and by the grace of God I am doing at least something right. Or headed in the right direction.
I don't really know where I am going but I just wanted to get that out there first of all. And that is that I don't know everything and I'm not the most God fearing devout person. I'm just me, I'm a sinner saved by Gods grace. yeah I know we hear this all to often but its good to hear again.
Ok so before I go any further, I just want to say I am in Washington DC right now. I am visiting one of my best friends Julianne. We were roommates for half a semester freshmen year at Gordon. It has been so good and a huge blessing to get to see and spend time with her again. I can't believe its been so long because it seems like I never left her. We can talk about anything and I missed her! haha ok so now to get a grip. It just has been wonderful so far. ANd I think once the weekend is over and i get back I will post an entry talking about all our misadventures but for now I just wanted to say that. I am in DC with Julianne. We just had lunch together in front of the Capital Building. Yes I know, how cool is that? It was through talking to her I realized how blessed my life has been. How happy I am and how everything is going good lately. It kind scares me because of course its so easy to trust God when everything is going right as rain. But what about when times get tough? Where will I be in my walk with God then. It scares me to think about because I know how easily I am led astray or how simple it is for me to overwhelmed and worry about something and then forget about all his promises and his love. So I guess I will just have to keep praying for that in the future.
I know this entry kind of has no real point and its kind of scattered but I just have been thinking alot lately about....lots of things and I have lots of things to say and ramble about but not enough time to do it. Right now I am kind of just blogging for no reason. I just feel like talking for no reason.
I have been thinking alot about how so often as Christains we get so caught up in proving ourselves or our faith to other people. We want to convert or "help" them so bad that we come across as pushy or even anxious about our faith. I think its important to remember a very simple concept. Ultimately, God doesn't NEED us to do anything. God can bring people to faith all on his own. Now that isnt to say that we arent called as christians to be a witness for Christ, or to evangelize or talk with people or answer questions. I think we are called to apply and use what knowledge we have for his glory and to give his love to others, which could of course be by spreading the word. And God does use us as tools and instruments for his glory, however we need to remember it is not HIM WHO NEEDS US it is we who need him (desperately). And so we should not really worry about this, becuase if we are doing what God calls us to, or at least seeking or trying to, conforming to his will, then he will use us as tools in this process anyway. ANd you never know how or when God is using you, when he does. You dont always know why God wants you somewhere or do do this or talk to this person, but its comforting to know that whereever you are right now, that is where God has put you, that is where you are and that is where you are supposed to be. I'm not saying its always easy or a feel good place, I am saying no matter where that is, as long as you are following him, you are there and this is where God wants you. And this is part of taking a leap of faith and trusting that he will bring it all to completetion and use you for his purposes, even if you cant see or know them right away. And maybe we will never know all that God is using us for in this life, or whose life God will change through us....but I think its something so important to remember and that is, he can and will use us...but we need to also trust he doesnt NEED us and whether it is through us or by some other means, God will heal and save other people. We just need to align our will to his....I believe this is through prayer and petition. It is so hard to do this. This is just something I have been thinking alot about lately, it is so hard to trust God and so hard to say "Oh well I'll just pray about it and let God take care of the rest." ANd then its hard to draw a line and say...I will stop at this point and God will work it out...but I do think that at some point you do have to do that. Because we can only do so much, and we need to trust God more, and know that his capacities are limitless.
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