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Earlier I was writing an entirely different post than this, but then I had to stop and sleep because I was tired and had no idea where I was going with it...and now I've lost my train of thought, and really have not much more to say on the matter. I mean, I still don't know exactly what I think about this whole predestination thing. I mean, I know what I ought to believe about it, but it's also really confusing and I'm not sure I understand it...I mean, at least not completely. I still have the post (which I never finished) saved as a draft. SO as soon as I work up the courage to go down that road again...well I will finish up and post it. For now I'm just going to ponder other matters.
Ok so its my first week back at school and I am already screwing up all over the place. It's something I keep realizing. Just because I went to Mexico on a mission trip for the summer doesn't mean I'm some saint now who is going to be really good at everything who suddenly won;t make mistakes. For instance, just now I broke my "only eating healthy food" rule, by woffing down ten oreo cookies. But I've decided I'm still not going to give up. I might just have to give these gosh for saken oreos away. Or put them in little baggies and limit myself to one serving a day. HAhaha wow I sound like someone who has a food addiction problem. I promise I'm not that bad. But did have a craving on an empty stomach. I guess this is what happens when I skip dinner. At least I know better for next time. Don't worry guys I'm not going to turn this into a food diary.
WOW This is the lamest entry I'm ever going to post! I don't even know if I want to...what girl is going to openly admit they binged on 10 oreo cookies at nine thirty at night? I guess I am? But seriously, what am I writing about...ANYWAY
This past weekend I went to visit my best friend Rachel. SHe goes to Penn State College. I think i'ts really funny that Rachel and ended up where we did as far as colleges go. We both vowed we would never go to state schools...we both wanted to go places where not a lot of our high school classmates went...we never wanted to go instate...and yet here we are at the two most notorious state schools in PA, Penn State and Pittsburgh. I always did like Pitt over Pennstate though, and she preferred Penn. My best friend at my rival school...Ironic? Anyway it was an awesome weekend. Friday we went out to dinner at this amazing thai resturant one of her roommates works at, and then we went out for ice cream at this little creamery on campus. Oh and we met Mr. Rodgers younger brother. He worked at the local tshirt shop. The entire weekend we were looking for a movie theatre online and a church and we ended up not finding both until an hour before I had to board my bus this afternoon. Well I guess we know for next time I visit her. We also watched the entire two first seasons of friends which is weird because I never realized how funny that show is until now. It's my favorite about ten years too late. I couldn't appreciate it when I was younger.
Ok so now I remember what it was like to just rant online about nothing. I'm sorry about this post. The only thing of importance that I can say is this; today on the bus ride back to Pittsburgh I forget what it was but something made me think of casa hogar and the kids. And I don't know I just really miss them.
Ok so its my first week back at school and I am already screwing up all over the place. It's something I keep realizing. Just because I went to Mexico on a mission trip for the summer doesn't mean I'm some saint now who is going to be really good at everything who suddenly won;t make mistakes. For instance, just now I broke my "only eating healthy food" rule, by woffing down ten oreo cookies. But I've decided I'm still not going to give up. I might just have to give these gosh for saken oreos away. Or put them in little baggies and limit myself to one serving a day. HAhaha wow I sound like someone who has a food addiction problem. I promise I'm not that bad. But did have a craving on an empty stomach. I guess this is what happens when I skip dinner. At least I know better for next time. Don't worry guys I'm not going to turn this into a food diary.
WOW This is the lamest entry I'm ever going to post! I don't even know if I want to...what girl is going to openly admit they binged on 10 oreo cookies at nine thirty at night? I guess I am? But seriously, what am I writing about...ANYWAY
This past weekend I went to visit my best friend Rachel. SHe goes to Penn State College. I think i'ts really funny that Rachel and ended up where we did as far as colleges go. We both vowed we would never go to state schools...we both wanted to go places where not a lot of our high school classmates went...we never wanted to go instate...and yet here we are at the two most notorious state schools in PA, Penn State and Pittsburgh. I always did like Pitt over Pennstate though, and she preferred Penn. My best friend at my rival school...Ironic? Anyway it was an awesome weekend. Friday we went out to dinner at this amazing thai resturant one of her roommates works at, and then we went out for ice cream at this little creamery on campus. Oh and we met Mr. Rodgers younger brother. He worked at the local tshirt shop. The entire weekend we were looking for a movie theatre online and a church and we ended up not finding both until an hour before I had to board my bus this afternoon. Well I guess we know for next time I visit her. We also watched the entire two first seasons of friends which is weird because I never realized how funny that show is until now. It's my favorite about ten years too late. I couldn't appreciate it when I was younger.
Ok so now I remember what it was like to just rant online about nothing. I'm sorry about this post. The only thing of importance that I can say is this; today on the bus ride back to Pittsburgh I forget what it was but something made me think of casa hogar and the kids. And I don't know I just really miss them.
I don't think you're falling/failing. Whenever we're perpetually around our faith and things that encourage us, it is so so easy to be good, because we see other people doing it. I always struggle at the beginning of school breaks because I'm going from being around my friends to being around my family. That's what is happening with you. You'll find your own natural rhythm. They gave you the tools, now it's time for you to build something on your own. And you'll find your place back here in the states. <3
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